Friday, July 12, 2013

why not me?

Five months since you've learned of my existence,
yet you can’t bear to have me in your presence.
How abrupt can our relationship be
when you’re terminating it in its infancy.

I have heard your crying late at night.
Calling names that are not mine.
I know of all your nightly conversations
with the man whose voice I’ve heard before.
The one for whom you've made this decision,
The man from the past you can’t let go.

I will never be ready for what is to come.
Nor will I be able to accept all will be gone.
I've always thought, with you, I will grow old.
And as years pass by, our story will unfold.

They say ahead is a future that is bright.
For you to have it, mine must be sacrificed.
You will do what you think must be done.
I’m just a casualty, as sad as it may sound.
For your selfishness will cost me my life.
I've already lost before given the chance to fight.

We’ll do this together for the last time,
As long our heartbeats still rhymes.
And when you wake up you won’t have to fear
I will no longer be there, you will be free.

Since that alcohol riddled night my fate was sealed.
I was but a consequence of two people’s folly.
Yet why must I be the one to pay the price?
Why must I, an unborn child, be despised?
You chose him over me that is your child
Whose life ended before given the chance to start.